Simple Truth from a 2 year old

I've been struggling with Apathy... complacency... whatever ugly word you want to use.  I became aware of it at our girls bible study when we were asked to write on a notecard what our leper spots were.  In other words, what are the ugly things about you that you don't really want other people to see?  Since then i've been very aware and honestly trying to change that spot into something pretty, but i just can't seem to get there.  Key word... I am trying.  On my own.  Praying to God, but not allowing His spirit to pray for me.  Yesterday my sister, Emily was telling me about how Adelle is beginning to grasp the whole Jesus thing.  She said they took out the nativity set and Adelle fell in love with baby Jesus immediately.  Like wouldn't let Him out of her sight.  Would lightly kiss Him, and hold him gently.  At that point, God starts speaking to me.  "Are you in love with Jesus the way this simple child is?"  "Do you long to be with him and kiss his face?"  "Do you hold him close and let his sweetness fill every corner of your soul?"  Then Adelle grasps the fact that Jesus is the light of the world, and tells her Daddy when he comes home.  Already ready and willing to spread the gospel and she doesn't even fully understand.  What a punch in the ole gut.  Truth is... He IS the light of the world.  And I have that light living inside of me.  And yet, I dim it.  I let the shadows of this world disguise the light.  God did not intend for me to live in darkness or in the shadows of sin.  His sacrifice was not so that I could receive that light and then let it flicker for the rest of my earthly life.  He did not enter this world as a baby, grow up and be tempted by every kind of evil, suffer a horrible death, have the sins of the world and God's wrath layed upon Him so I could just sit here in stagnation. 
“You are the light of the world—like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden. No one lights a lamp and then puts it under a basket. Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand, where it gives light to everyone in the house.  In the same way, let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your heavenly Father."  Matthew 5:14-16
My challenge to myself this Christmas, is to remember the light that Christ provides.  To remember that those who are seeking (the shepherds) to worship my King, can see a light in me and follow that light to Christ.